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ADHD: Because sometimes you have to drop everything and learn how to make dipped candles. For no reason. by KATY ROLLINS

It happens from time to time, I guess I shouldn’t get all-capsy about it, but I am. I AM.
I had a great day running one of my outdoor events, things went pretty smoothly, and dayum – it felt good.
Then, in the middle of a random conversation with one of my vendors – I decided that I had to make dipped wax candles. NOW. I’ve never made dipped wax candles before. Not really – I think I tried it once as a visitor to some kind of museum or something. As she kept talking, I started searching for information about candlemaking and candlemaking supplies on my iPhone.
iPhone: You’re such an ADHD enabler. All that information at my fingertips! How am I supposed to exercise restraint when I know that I can get a Master’s degree in candlemaking online in just minutes.
My vendor finally asked what I was doing (besides saying uh-huh while she talked) – and then she was sucked in too, mwahahahahaha. “Oh I’ve done that before, it’s fun!” she said. Just what I needed to hear. So I kept skimming all of the pages on the internet on the topic of candlemaking.
In the course of about ten minutes I was able to discern that I would prefer to work with soy, how to make a cool holder thingy to loop the wicks through while dipping them, and what kind of colors and scents to use, if you’re into that sort of thing (AND I AM).
Then I realized that I shouldn’t do it because I’m already barely managing my current to-do list, and I don’t need more projects – and the compulsion to do it became fierce. That bitch was taking over.
It took me…gosh, probably three hours to completely submerge the impulse to get candlemaking supplies and make ALL OF THE CANDLES IN THE WORLD this evening – sometime between my event ending, getting some rest, eating some dinner, and then going to see Sonny (my musician husband) play a show with a new band he’s been rehearsing with. The candlemaking compulsion was really aggressive and kept telling me that I didn’t need to go to the show because clearly I HAD TO MAKE CANDLES.
The nice thing about having a husband with ADHD (one of the many things) is that when I explained to him what was going on in my brain, and that my thought processes had essentially been taking over by some kind of candlemaking alien, hellbent on taking over the world – he laughed. Because he knows EXACTLY what that’s like. He and I agreed that I had to turn this hole thing around somehow, and use the candlemaking as a reward, after I get through the three big things I need to finish at the moment, here in reality.
As you can see…I AM STILL THINKING ABOUT IT. I WANT TO MAKE THE CANDLES! IN EVERY COLOR! EVERY SCENT! DIPPED CANDLES <——because pouring wax into a tin is just not challenging enough! CANDLES!!!!!!!!!!!! (Candles!) I want to beat the little therapist in my head with a hand-dipped candle! (Stop talking to meeeee, little therapist!)

Emily Hoppin

A native from the state of Colorado, USA, Emily first came to Lebanon in 2016 to volunteer teach at a summer English camp for refugees hosted by one of LSESD’s partner churches in Zahle. Upon arriving in Lebanon, she immediately fell in love with the country and knew that she was destined to come back for the long term. After completing her master’s degree in Linguistics at the Free University of Berlin, Emily was finally able to realize her dream of moving to Lebanon. In August 2019, Emily Hoppin joined the LSESD team as its Communications Officer. “Working at LSESD is like putting that missing piece into a puzzle. For the first time in my life, everything fits,” she states. With a knack for languages, writing, and connecting with people, Emily feels as though all of her skills, talents, and passions have finally come together in one place through her work at LSESD. Just as her first name means “industrious”, Emily believes in hard work and perseverance. Allowing Colossians 3:23 to guide her work ethic, Emily seeks to serve the Lord in her role at LSESD with all of her heart, mind, soul, and strength.

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